I'm proud of myself for having plowed through nearly all the work I had to do this weekend. But I've noticed something stupid and self-destructive. The closer I got to being finished, the more time I started spending at my computer playing Scrabble and reading blogs. Not "the more time I spent with my kids" or "the more healthy meals I started cooking" or even "the more miles I started walking." Nope, I got to a level of panic and dysfunction I was comfortable with and decided to just set there a spell.
And since it's True Confessions Time, I'll also tell you this: When I started seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, my brain (fueled, probably, by its daily small dose of chocolate) had a genuine sugar tantrum, and I decided I had plenty of time to try to make chocolate-chip cookies out of almonds, coconut oil, and agave nectar. (I should post the recipe I came up with, because, oh, man, they were so good.)
I don't know how to fix the Internet thing. I need the Internet all the time for my job, and I'm not willing to quit Facebook or to stop reading the blogs I enjoy. But I do know how to fix the sugar problem. Gonna ban it until the next family birthday, March 15. Then I'll give myself another shot at this beast called moderation.
This is why the AA people recommend quitting entirely -- I suspect moderation is harder than all or nothing.
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